Lots of stuff happening in life right now. Yep. Some good, some bad; the usual mix in a healthy life.

University is stressfull. I’ve started to dream about the stuff I’m writing my master thesis about. I’m unconcentrated, clumsy and my attention for everything that’s NOT university stuff is down the drain. Going to work is kinda hard, since all I’m doing is to think about the master thesis. Honestly, this state is kinda scary; theres only time I was that distracted before, and back then I walked into a driving tram. But hey, it’s only two months left, then I’m done! And yes, I try to pay attention to the traffic. ;) Heh. Even if I’d had the time to do ToC, I’m not sure if I’d actually be CAPABLE of doing so, right now.

Still broke, but that’s why I’m doing the university thing. If everything works out, I’ll have a good, well payed job by the end of this year. Looking forward to this: I’m going to buy a new bed! And a car! And maybe clothes! That prolly revokes my rights to call myself a geek, but hey. Sleeps important. And I’m both a German AND a woman, that explains the car and the clothes. ;)

Asides the bouts of exestential angst caused by facing a real high stress situation with little to none emotional support, I’m doing quite well. Smiling alot more these days than I did a half year ago. :)

And there are two things, that are really important (to me) for 2008.

1. Raise ToC’s update frequency to two pages per week, WITHOUT dropping any update.
2. Finish my Diplomarbeit (the German equivalent of a master thesis) with a grade as good as possible

My parents would propably be everything but overjoyed to see ToC at the first place, but in the end it’s my life and my priorities. Of course there’s more that requires my attention in 2008. Some big things like finding a great job and starting my own family; medium things like losing weight and starting to run regulary, even small stuff like cleaning out my closets or training my cat to leave the laminate floor in one piece (I love her, but some habbits of hers drive me batty). But - too many goals at once and you’re not going to reach even one. Bwam, failure, your own fault. But without goals, how is one to know if life goes into an acceptable direction?

To be really successful, one has to concentrate on one or two things.

Still, those new years resolutions always are a thing on it’s own - has anybody ever managed to keep up with them? I never did. Being half drunk at midnight in the middle of a party (ideally…) is simply a STUPID time to decide what’s really important in the next year. That’s why I started sorting my priorities in early December. It wasn’t easy, there’s simply sooo much stuff to do. We’ll see if it’ll work out this year.

Do you guys have goals for 2008? Or do you belong to those who have given up on New Years Resolutions a long time ago?

I’m not happy at all in the world of colorful lineless paintings. Granted, they’re incredible pretty and it would be nice and really, really great if I could produce a great painting, and my skill’s passable, I think… But I DO NOT enjoy painting. At all. It’s a chore. It takes to much time, is to inefficient for me and it’s utterly frustrating.

It took some time for me to realise this, actually. And making this decision sure wasn’t easy, too. It’s a very important decision, though. Because knowing what you do not want to do is as important as knowing what you want do – only this allows you to truly focus onto your strength, to become truly great. And at least in the area of art a personal style is also defined by the things the artist doesn’t do at all additionally to the how he/she does it.

I might pick up painting again in the future (Never say never…), but right the goals is to master the lineart and it’s colouration - so that I can develop my own, definite style.

Her name’s Jule, she likes to hide in the closet.